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What was Snape risking that made any one think Snape risked more? Tonks, Hermione, Luna, Kingsley were injured, Cedric was killed. Emmeline was killed, Sirius was killed, Moody was killed, Arthur attacked by the Snake, Fred was killed, poor fourteen year old Colin was killed. They were all risking their lives for the same cause and Voldemort could only kill him once. As to him being a loner, what was he to say to a group of people he had spent the first war fighting against?
Sirius showed in the cave that he was willing to give Snape the benefit of the doubt when Ron and Hermione started bickering over Snape's loyalty to Dumbledore. Snape never gave any quarter as far as Snape was concerned.
He never gave any thought to the fact that if Sirius was Harry's godfather, then Lily as well James must have trusted and loved him enough to trust him with her most precious possession.
When Moody starts brigning out pictures of the old Order or talking about the Death of the Mckinnons or Molly's brothers Snape certainly couldn't admit that he too remembers that day because he was there as a Death Eater.
I don't know how any of them did it--that is sat at the same table with Snape without wondering did this former enemy strike one of the blows that cost their former comrades their lives?
It couldn't have been comfortable for him, but no one in the Order, including and especially Sirius, is resposible for Snape's discomfort, if he felt any, except Snape himself.
One of the reason Dumbledore might have not encourage Snape to be up front about his change, is that more people at that table lost family members than Harry. All of them lost either family or comrades at arms when Snape was solidly on Voldemort's side. Molly might not have been able to over look the fact that Snape might have been one of the group of Death Eaters that attacked her brothers. I would hope that part of Snape's tears when he read Lily's letter was due to his knowledge that he might have been among the Death Eaters who attacked the Marlene Mckinnon with Voldemort.
Snape's is a totally different experience in the war. I agree, Dumbledore shoud have encouraged Snape to tell Sirius and Lupin the truth. Sirius had to tell Harry that it was his idea, that he pursuaded Lily and James to trust Peter. Lupin and Sirius had to apologize for distrusting each other. That couldn't have been easy.
But Dumbledore was harder on Sirius, Lupin, even Harry when it came to confronting their mistakes, because he expected more them. He expected Sirius, Lupin, Harry to have the courage to face their mistakes and move on. I don't think he thought Snape was capable of doing the same thing.
This post has been edited by Maime the Hunter: Mar 22 2008, 03:14 PM
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